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Thursday, June 11th, 2015
9:41 am
[maya6120]
Anyone here still?
Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
5:04 pm
[emeraldlie]
new
Hello-. 

I'm new in this community. 

I don't know where to start..

I've been anoretic for 2 years now, and i have decided o make my own community:

anorexic_key 

Plz join if you want :)
Sunday, November 12th, 2006
12:15 pm
[paradoxalworld]
Superchick- Courage
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm up through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
Friday, November 10th, 2006
7:21 pm
[paradoxalworld]


Hey everyone

Please apply for my new community! :D
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
5:50 pm
[hi_im_viv]
hey girls
i knwo we all hate to see this but i dotn knwo how else to promote my community

http://community.livejournal.com/love_your_ana/

i hope it can be a big, caring, fun community
so please join :)

love viv
xx
Friday, August 12th, 2005
11:39 am
[heidismommy]
Motivation
Here is a little motivation for all of us:
inspirationCollapse )
Sunday, August 7th, 2005
3:58 am
[downtown__la]
fix you- coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but If you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears streaming down your face and I

Tears streaming down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Monday, June 6th, 2005
3:25 pm
[suicide_on_tv]
bleed like me // garbage
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me

Chrissie's all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me

Doodle takes Dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me

Therapy is speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me

JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me

You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars

Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend

You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
9:47 pm
[hardxeyes]

        Join Craving_perfect

Saturday, April 30th, 2005
11:55 pm
[suicide_on_tv]
Im not sure if you guys have heard this one
you probably have:



You are calm and reposed
Let your beuaty unfold
Pale white like the skin stretched over you bone
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding on to yourself the best you can.


Current Mood: hungry
Friday, March 11th, 2005
1:44 pm
[starving_thin_]
The lyrics in this remind me of ana:
Haemoglobin-Placebo

I was hanging from a tree
Unaccustomed to such violence
Jesus looking down on me
I'm prepared for one big silence

How'd I ever end up here
Must be through some lack of kindness
And it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key

Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat

At the time they cut me free
I was brimming with defiance
Doctors looking down on me
Breaking every law of science
How'd I ever end up here?
A latent strain of color blindness
Then it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key

Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat [x4]

Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground

As they drag me to my feet
I was filled with incoherence
Theories of conspiracy
The whole world wants my disappearance
I'll go fighting nail and teeth
You've never seen such perseverance
Gonna make you scared of me
Cause haemoglobin is the key

Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat [x4]

Now my feet don't touch the ground [x8]
1:43 pm
[starving_thin_]
MANIC STREET PREACHERS LYRICS

"4st. 7lbs."

I eat too much to die
And not enough to stay alive
I'm sitting in the middle waiting

Days since I last pissed
Cheeks sunken and despaired
So gorgeous sunk to six stone
Lose my only remaining home

See my third rib appear
A week later all my flesh disappears
Stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I'm getting better

Karen says I've reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristin know it's fake
Problem is diet's not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view

I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity

Stomach collapsed at five
Lift up my skirt my sex is gone
Naked and lovely and 5st. 2
May I bud and never flower

My vision's getting blurred
But I can see my ribs and I feel fine
My hands are trembling stalks
And I can feel my breasts are sinking

Mother trys to choke me with roast beef
And sits savouring her sole Ryvita
That's the way you're built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding

I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity

Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
All things I like looking at
Too weak to fuss, too weak to die
Choice is skeletal in everybody's life

I choose my choice, I starve to frenzy
Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy
And I don't mind the horror that surrounds me

Self-worth scatters, self-esteem's a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
This discipline's so rare so please applaud
Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so

Yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth
Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I've finally come to understand life
Through staring blankly at my navel
Monday, January 10th, 2005
9:05 pm
[___loseweight__]
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
9:36 pm
[sikkinixx]
Big Isn't Beautiful by King Adora

I want your heart shaped lips, lips
Cooler hula hips,
I want to feel my bones on your bones, baby,
I wear my heartache on my sleeve,
I love myself to much to see...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream) When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who’s thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn’t beautiful.

I’m gonna shed me some skin,
Get me real real slim,
I want to feels my bones on your bones,
I am a teenage Drama Queen,
I throw my guts up for self-esteem...

It haunts my dreams...

(It haunts my every dream)

When every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girls who’s thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for,
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn’t beautiful.

Ooh, ohh ohh...

Every boy wants a body to die for,
And every girl who’s thin is his rival,
I wish I had a body to die for...
Skinny is sexy,
Sweet anorexia!
Skinny is sexy,
Big isn’t beautiful!
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
12:31 pm
[broken_angel627]
Hey girls. I have just created a new community for people with any eating disorder. You can do whatever you want there. Post thinspiration, share tips, whatever...please join. I want it to be a safe place for us all to go.

http://www.livejournal.com/community/_brokenangels/
Friday, September 24th, 2004
11:40 pm
[_yeartobehated_]
oops, i seem to have forgotten one!
((the distillers - 'sick of it all'))

I'm a girl
I'm only thirteen
My body rots
Cause I won't fucking eat
I'm a silent star on the b-roll
I'm a mirror fucking image of no control
Give me an award
I conquered food again
What else is better in life than to purge my pain?
If I cut,I won't look like that
If I cut,If I cut,
I won't feel like this shit
11:19 pm
[_yeartobehated_]
i love best week ever.
all of these are good songs as well as ana-related lyrics. they're all definately worth a download. tell me what you think! :)

*****

((maria mena - 'just a little bit'))

Clearly, clearly I remember
Hiking up my skirt
Asking for your time

Clearly, clearly I remember
Nervous if ever confronted
And questioning myself

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I got better
Perhaps if I challenged myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

And maybe I'd get there...

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner

And maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Pulling up my shirt
Staring blank ahead

Clearly, clearly I remember
Days of useless crying
Almost feeling dead

Oh perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller
Perhaps, I could control myself.

*****

((katy rose - 'lemon' ))

So hurting here is where I belong singing a song
Blood on my hands to stay strong
The flowers in the graveyard are all gone I don't belong
There is no right to heal the wrong
Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die
I can't throw up don't think i evan want to try

You still can't make me cry
You've pinned this butterfly
Down
My fire's burning out
Kill my flame without
A frown
And starving hurts the soul
When you're hungry for
Some love
So if I close my eyes
I can really fly
Above

*****

((tegan and sara - 'clever meals'))

This song is my anthem
And it makes up my ideas
And who I am
Has benefitted from all my cleverly planned meals
All my cleverly planned meals

I'm stripped and vital and I see rules that almost fit
So if I voice my opinion will you stay and sit
And as I stand here screaming in despair
I said yes this is my life and yes you should care

*****

((killing heidi - 'jar labelled small'))

By the time you read this I'll be fast asleep and waking
All the faces growing in me, haven't been felling human for a while now
Getting thinner and thinner every day
Well everything around me gets bigger and bigger
Elevating me it's gone too fast but I fed it 20c it was my call.

'Cause I couldn't see I could fall
I couldn't see I could fall.

Current Mood: awake
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
9:56 am
[pink_angels]
Hmmmmm.....
another distorted image by Angelica
AAmbitious
NNeat
AAccurate
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AArty
NNatural
GGlamorous
EExciting
LLight
SSappy

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Had a strange couple of days. Always eat a bit when I'm ill because I just feel like I have ZERO energy and therefore need a little bit to keep me going. Hard to stomach when you are used to black coffee, and then a little dinner once a day about 7pm, but hey, apart from the fat gut and the fear and self loathing, it was fine [/sarcasm].
The worst bit about being ill is exercise. I find it so hard, whereas normally I need it more than anything else. Still got my fat arse on my bike and pedalled away but you know what it's like - unless you do your normal target, or better when you exceed it, then it's not good enough. That little voice talls you that you're a stupid lazy selfish cow for worrying about fainting in front of your family if you'd gone on, and how you should have burned that other 150 cals away anyway - especially as you ate in the day. Small flapjack and some rice cakes. Fuck me, I feel revolted at the mere thought of it.
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
1:29 pm
[pink_angels]
Please post up your history.
Pretty - and oddly enough nothing like meI thought it might be nice if we posted up our histories of how we came to be where we are now. It might just be interesting to see how much common ground most of us have. Please post these details either in a new message if you are a member of ANA ANGELS - or else pop it in the free-for-all BUDDY LIST.

Do you have a GENETIC PREDISPOSITION? Do ED's run in your family?
Did you have a stereotypical 'anorexic family' growing up? That is negative, where parents were interfering and overprotective and where expectations were unusually high to achieve and succeed? Did you avoid conflict with your family? One parent overbearing while the other was quite passive? Family rules so strong it was difficult to express your individuality?
Were you subjected to abuse - whether of a sexual, physical or emotional nature?
Did your ED start due to adolescent crisis?Were you stopped from taking risks at this age and was your homelife unstable at this time?
Did it start out as a desire to conform to the social desire to be slim?
Was it a part of searching for autonomy?
Did you inherit low self esteem from parents who feel that way about themselves?
Did it start around the time of a period of separation or loss?

Just thought it would be nice to share. I fall into almost every category and it's actually of some kind of comfort to know I'm just a textbook anorexic as opposed to being the freak I always felt like growing up. The person is inside my head, that is me. But 'the body' I am trapped in just makes me sick.
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
3:39 pm
[anagirls]
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